Give yourself time to heal.
It's hard to forgive and forget when the person who hurt you is the same person you loved for so long. You love and die at same time. The agony of loving someone that rips your heart in million pieces.
Just remember: It's better to have loved and lost, than to never have loved at all!
Maybe God have bigger plans =P He's still sorting out the list, and figuring out the best for you. =)
Now that it’s all said and done,
I can’t believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.
Well, I never saw it coming.
I should’ve started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I’d doubt you,
I’m better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I’m slowly getting closure.
I guess it’s really over.
I’m finally getting better.
And now I’m picking up the pieces.
I’m spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
‘Cause the day I thought I’d never get through,
I got over you.
You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.
Well, I never saw it coming.
I should’ve started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I’d doubt you,
I’m better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I’m slowly getting closure.
I guess it’s really over.
I’m finally getting better.
And now I’m picking up the pieces.
I’m spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
‘Cause the day I thought I’d never get through,
I got over you.
Well, I never saw it coming.
I should’ve started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I’d doubt you,
I’m better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
Well, I never saw it coming.
I should’ve started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I’d doubt you,
I’m better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I’m slowly getting closure.
I guess it’s really over.
I’m finally getting better.
And now I’m picking up the pieces.
I’m spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Well I’m putting my heart back together,
‘Cause I got over you.
Well I got over you.
I got over you.
‘Cause the day I thought I’d never get through,
I got over you.
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
Saturday, July 7, 2007
One afternoon...
The sound of the church bells rings throughout the hill, as the wooden door was opened wide. People lined up on the sides as they start to cheer for the couple who wore the brightest smiles.
He, with his funny looking tux and bow, still with that boyish look in his face, all perked up as he held the most precious gift God has given him.
She, with her long trailing veil and a bouquet of orange roses, flushed with admiration and chilled with excitement as she lend her arm to her groom.
Neither could care less about their surrounding.The garlands seemed to float, the flower petals fragant the air, the rice grains and confetti descended and shower them as they walked out of the chapel holding hands towards the path that leads them to the other side of life. Their future.
Another fairy tale wedding, if only I was she...
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When I started this project, my main goal was to figure out why other people still stay in a relationship even when they are miserable and broken. But to do that, I have to find someone good enough to be 'my special friend' and help me figure things out.Be a participant, not an observer.
In the process, some of my friends and office mates helped out. Most of them have their share of candidates and recommendations. Their bets and entries to this madness.
So I did entertain them, hoping that within one month I'd find someone.
In the end, one stood me up. The other gave me the creeps. Some, have no time for me.
(more entries about these encounters -- this is fun!)
Although I never had that short term relationship, I learned alot about dating and finding the one.
Realizaion No#1: It's really not them, It's me.
I have put a high price on Love and Relationship. So high, that shrek's happily ever after would pale in comparison.
One of my friends said, "Baka naman asawa ang hanap mo!"
Well, my rebutal to that remark would be a nice miss universe answer at the moment. "I really believe that in a relationship, You just don't pick someone for the sake of having somebody. You find someone whom you could see yourself with in the future." What's the point of wasting your 2yrs, 5yrs, or 10yrs with someone who you don't intend to end up with? Plus it would really be unfair for the other person, if s/he is expecting you to join him/her at the finish line.
But a simple, "E di nag hanap nalang sana ako ng bato - panghilod,pambato sa kaaway at pangpukpok sa ulo, kung asawa ang hanap ko", would shut them up.
I might be hopeless, or you could call me stupid. But I do believe that there are still more out there. I don't have to settle to the first person who bumped into me just because I'm already 23, still single and No Boy Friend Since Birth. (I'd consider that 10yrs after, but not right now.)
Finding the right one is not easy. That could be one of the reason's why other people still seem to hold on to relationships. We always seem to hope and think that this person whom we shared so many special moments and precious events is the one. So we either mold them to what we want him/her to be Or we bend and fold to their every wish and dream. We always fear that he/she mght be the one that got away. =P
But relationship is far more complex that finding the right owner of that glass slipper. You have to deal with the person that comes along with that fitting shoe. So I guess my beliefs aren't as applicable as it is probable. Nevertheless, there's no harm in figuring out who you want to be with in the future before facing the future with someone you haven't figure out. hehehe..
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This month I'll be attending weddings. One of it is my "childhood love team's" wedding.
He, with his funny looking tux and bow, still with that boyish look in his face, all perked up as he held the most precious gift God has given him.
She, with her long trailing veil and a bouquet of orange roses, flushed with admiration and chilled with excitement as she lend her arm to her groom.
Neither could care less about their surrounding.The garlands seemed to float, the flower petals fragant the air, the rice grains and confetti descended and shower them as they walked out of the chapel holding hands towards the path that leads them to the other side of life. Their future.
Another fairy tale wedding, if only I was she...
==============================
When I started this project, my main goal was to figure out why other people still stay in a relationship even when they are miserable and broken. But to do that, I have to find someone good enough to be 'my special friend' and help me figure things out.Be a participant, not an observer.
In the process, some of my friends and office mates helped out. Most of them have their share of candidates and recommendations. Their bets and entries to this madness.
So I did entertain them, hoping that within one month I'd find someone.
In the end, one stood me up. The other gave me the creeps. Some, have no time for me.
(more entries about these encounters -- this is fun!)
Although I never had that short term relationship, I learned alot about dating and finding the one.
Realizaion No#1: It's really not them, It's me.
I have put a high price on Love and Relationship. So high, that shrek's happily ever after would pale in comparison.
One of my friends said, "Baka naman asawa ang hanap mo!"
Well, my rebutal to that remark would be a nice miss universe answer at the moment. "I really believe that in a relationship, You just don't pick someone for the sake of having somebody. You find someone whom you could see yourself with in the future." What's the point of wasting your 2yrs, 5yrs, or 10yrs with someone who you don't intend to end up with? Plus it would really be unfair for the other person, if s/he is expecting you to join him/her at the finish line.
But a simple, "E di nag hanap nalang sana ako ng bato - panghilod,pambato sa kaaway at pangpukpok sa ulo, kung asawa ang hanap ko", would shut them up.
I might be hopeless, or you could call me stupid. But I do believe that there are still more out there. I don't have to settle to the first person who bumped into me just because I'm already 23, still single and No Boy Friend Since Birth. (I'd consider that 10yrs after, but not right now.)
Finding the right one is not easy. That could be one of the reason's why other people still seem to hold on to relationships. We always seem to hope and think that this person whom we shared so many special moments and precious events is the one. So we either mold them to what we want him/her to be Or we bend and fold to their every wish and dream. We always fear that he/she mght be the one that got away. =P
But relationship is far more complex that finding the right owner of that glass slipper. You have to deal with the person that comes along with that fitting shoe. So I guess my beliefs aren't as applicable as it is probable. Nevertheless, there's no harm in figuring out who you want to be with in the future before facing the future with someone you haven't figure out. hehehe..
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This month I'll be attending weddings. One of it is my "childhood love team's" wedding.
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
Dating 101
This post is only a reflection of what the author has experienced when it comes to 'DATING'.
1. Research on the person you're going to meet. At least have an idea how he/she looks like, it helps that you're not worrying that he looks like "palito" or "babalu". Know his/her likes and dislikes,so you will have something to talk about.
2. Do not expect so much from the person. Do not expect a classy resto, a car, a gentleman gesture, deep conversation, or who will be paying for the night.
3. There is no reason for you to be rude. You have to sit through the whole date, even if you want to go home and cry.
I have had it with dating! Maybe it's just me, I have set too high standards. Or it's really not the right time.
Hehehe... either way! I'm quitting!
End of June!
Gotta find someone who will put this project into motion. hehehe.
1. Research on the person you're going to meet. At least have an idea how he/she looks like, it helps that you're not worrying that he looks like "palito" or "babalu". Know his/her likes and dislikes,so you will have something to talk about.
2. Do not expect so much from the person. Do not expect a classy resto, a car, a gentleman gesture, deep conversation, or who will be paying for the night.
3. There is no reason for you to be rude. You have to sit through the whole date, even if you want to go home and cry.
I have had it with dating! Maybe it's just me, I have set too high standards. Or it's really not the right time.
Hehehe... either way! I'm quitting!
End of June!
Gotta find someone who will put this project into motion. hehehe.
Sunday, June 24, 2007
Monday Rush
Every Monday, around Six o'clock in the morning my DAD drops me off the bus station. There, I wait for the ALABANG - SKYWAY-LAWTON bus to stop and pick up Monday morning rushers. All of us eager to get on the earliest bus to arrive.
While most of us realize that it's still 6am, and we still have a maximum of 2hrs and 30mins to get to Makati or manila, we still fight for that last seat or that empty place in the middle of the bus. Somehow, the timing REALLY is a big deal. I've had experiences where a 5mins difference in departure means 30mins in the real URBAN world. But that's if the bus driver is a road maniac or has had too much coffee for breakfast.
It just amazes me how people rush to get on a bus even if it's already jam packed. They know for sure that there will come another bus, spacious and accommodating enough for all. There wouldn't be any harassments, torture and mental torment. Only catch is you'll have to wait for a minimum of 10mins or worst 1hrs. It could have been better; it's just the waiting part that sucks! Why do the perfect BUS arrives 30 minutes late. Not as if you couldn't wait any longer. It's the idea of uncertainty and the thought of having been left alone - Thinking, you could have gone with the first 3 full bus - that is killing the rushers and making them choose to suffer sudden pain than indefinite agony.
Personally, I think I have longer patience. I think I can wait longer. I just keep asking myself why do I have to rush, when there's nothing too urgent to do. I would definitely arrive earlier than those who live next to the place I'm going. Nobody is pushing me, but myself. RELAX a bit.
Plus, I just have to keep in mind that the more I adjust time backwards to give allowance, the more time I waste waiting. It's really not just a matter of who's early but a matter of timing as well. Why do you have to be early, if you know you couldn't catch the PERFECT bus? Why not arrive in time for the perfect bus?
Every time I wait for that bus I wonder...
In life, do we wait for the PERFECT BUS to arrive or are we too afraid of the uncertainty that we'll hop onto the first trip regardless whether that bus will have stop over or might not journey on to our final destination?
For now, I find it difficult to know if I had chosen the right bus.. Of course I would have been half asleep to notice.
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REPOST FROM SNOWWIZARD, a person who's single and still believe that true love comes in a perfect timing. =)
While most of us realize that it's still 6am, and we still have a maximum of 2hrs and 30mins to get to Makati or manila, we still fight for that last seat or that empty place in the middle of the bus. Somehow, the timing REALLY is a big deal. I've had experiences where a 5mins difference in departure means 30mins in the real URBAN world. But that's if the bus driver is a road maniac or has had too much coffee for breakfast.
It just amazes me how people rush to get on a bus even if it's already jam packed. They know for sure that there will come another bus, spacious and accommodating enough for all. There wouldn't be any harassments, torture and mental torment. Only catch is you'll have to wait for a minimum of 10mins or worst 1hrs. It could have been better; it's just the waiting part that sucks! Why do the perfect BUS arrives 30 minutes late. Not as if you couldn't wait any longer. It's the idea of uncertainty and the thought of having been left alone - Thinking, you could have gone with the first 3 full bus - that is killing the rushers and making them choose to suffer sudden pain than indefinite agony.
Personally, I think I have longer patience. I think I can wait longer. I just keep asking myself why do I have to rush, when there's nothing too urgent to do. I would definitely arrive earlier than those who live next to the place I'm going. Nobody is pushing me, but myself. RELAX a bit.
Plus, I just have to keep in mind that the more I adjust time backwards to give allowance, the more time I waste waiting. It's really not just a matter of who's early but a matter of timing as well. Why do you have to be early, if you know you couldn't catch the PERFECT bus? Why not arrive in time for the perfect bus?
Every time I wait for that bus I wonder...
In life, do we wait for the PERFECT BUS to arrive or are we too afraid of the uncertainty that we'll hop onto the first trip regardless whether that bus will have stop over or might not journey on to our final destination?
For now, I find it difficult to know if I had chosen the right bus.. Of course I would have been half asleep to notice.
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REPOST FROM SNOWWIZARD, a person who's single and still believe that true love comes in a perfect timing. =)
Sunday, June 17, 2007
Why We Love
I believe in LOVE. But I'm NOT IN LOVE.
I'm single but I'm not looking.
I'm a Hopeless Romantic, but I'm a Rational Pessimist.
I'm not committed but I have commitments.
For the longest time, I have been wanting to write something about the thing that occupies 90% of each person's life. The thing that - as they say - makes the world go around. The gravity that pulls one to another. Deeper than attraction. Better than chemistry.
Love.
I'm not a mushy sentimental person, but I do believe in it. In everything that it can do to a person, to one's life and perception.
All my life, I have been living and breathing the wonders and joys of SINGLEHOOD. It's really fun and all, specially when I think about those who are in a 'miserable' state of relationship, unrequited love, or the third party tangled between soulmates. Reaction of each individual towards the relationship is unique and very interesting. It made me wonder.. Am I missing something? Maybe.. just maybe there's more to what the superficial words, written poems or mellow tunes. There's got to be something more.
Maybe it's true that there's a big difference between an observer and a participant. Someone who has experienced the trills and turmoils of being in love and commiting to a relationship.
Hence, from here on.. I pledge to dig deep.
Analyze. Scrutinize. Explore.
Why we love?
I'm single but I'm not looking.
I'm a Hopeless Romantic, but I'm a Rational Pessimist.
I'm not committed but I have commitments.
For the longest time, I have been wanting to write something about the thing that occupies 90% of each person's life. The thing that - as they say - makes the world go around. The gravity that pulls one to another. Deeper than attraction. Better than chemistry.
Love.
I'm not a mushy sentimental person, but I do believe in it. In everything that it can do to a person, to one's life and perception.
All my life, I have been living and breathing the wonders and joys of SINGLEHOOD. It's really fun and all, specially when I think about those who are in a 'miserable' state of relationship, unrequited love, or the third party tangled between soulmates. Reaction of each individual towards the relationship is unique and very interesting. It made me wonder.. Am I missing something? Maybe.. just maybe there's more to what the superficial words, written poems or mellow tunes. There's got to be something more.
Maybe it's true that there's a big difference between an observer and a participant. Someone who has experienced the trills and turmoils of being in love and commiting to a relationship.
Hence, from here on.. I pledge to dig deep.
Analyze. Scrutinize. Explore.
Why we love?
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