The Promise

Once upon a time... I prayed for an angel. The one who would be my best friend, who would take me for who I am and who would make me a better person. Some one I'll love and will love me in return. And after 24 years of waiting, He game me the Gift. He gave me Chard =)

On my birthday, Chard went to Laguna to pick me up. Our initial plan was just to have a simple dinner sa labas and coffee. pero dahil galing pa siya ng office sa manila at traffic sa SLEX late na siya dumating. So we just grab some bites sa bahay and went off to Manila.

On our way to manila, we dopped by Shell. Nagyaya siya mag coffee nalang.

Chard: Ano gagawin mo kung pinasara ko ang starbucks for a special occassion?
Wee: (Natatawa) "Hindi mo kaya un, for 2 reasons. 1.Wala tayong Budget at 2.Wala kang time".
Chard: Ang yabang mo naman. (natatawa). Malay mo! May nababangit ba ang mag friends mo? malay mo kinausap ko sila calai or ann.
Wee: Ngek! (Nag iisip na hindi talaga pwede un, dahil addik sa work si Ann. Alanganin din bumalik pang SLEX sila calai)

So pinark nya si Archie sa tapat ng 'PARKING AREA' sign. At kinulit nya ako na kailangan ko daw mag blind fold. Hindi ko naman magets kung bakit, pero he insisted. So while wearing the blind fold, pinapakingan ko kung anong ginagawa nya. He took something from the back. Naamoy ko na ung flowers na naklagay sa likod at naririnig ko ung kaluskos ng paper bag. He played something sa radio and it sounded familiar.

What day is it? And in what month?

This clock never seemed so alive

I can't keep up and I can't back down

I've been losing so much time

'Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do

Nothing to loseAnd it's you and me and all other people

And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

One of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right

I'm tripping on wordsYou've got my head spinning

I don't know where to go from here

Chard: Pakingan mo ung song, isipin mo ung first day na nagkita tayo. Yung day na nag kwentuhan tayo na parang matagal na tayong magkakilala. Yung mga happy moments natin together. I feel mo ung love. Now take off your blind fold.

"Happy Birthday Baby!"

He handed me the boquet of roses and the cake from starbucks :D He remembered how I liked giving cakes for birthdays and special occssions but seldom receive one for my own. heheheh. I already saw the flowers so alam ko na. :D Then he told me, "Hanapin mo ung gift ko". HUH?! I have no idea what was he talking about. At dahil nga hindi ko ma gets sinabi nya na nasa loob ng flowers. I looked in and found a card and a box. He normally says 'Will you marry me?' to his messages. Pero when I saw the box, parang naloka ako. I had to ask him more than 4 times kung seryoso siya. At nung nag sink in sa akin, I almost cried. My first answer was 'No! No! No!'. hahahaha. I know in my heart I wanted to marry him. he's the only one for me and i don't know what to do with out him. pero hindi ko sure kung NOW na! Actually, the answer was 'YES' pero hindi ko alam pano ang next move ko. I was scared and happy at the same time. :D We had some coffee and went back to manila. I told him, it's a technically 'YES'. heheheh...

On my birthday, I received a cake, a boquet of flowers and a promise. :)

A promise of love, life and *hopefully a diamond ring* hahahaha


The funny story continued on the 13th of December. Normally, chard stays at home on weekends. That morning, while having our normal breakfast, he officially asked permission from my parents. :) It's not too formal, pero he showed respect to them by having courage to tell them up front. Medjo hindi mapakali ung dad ko. He kept on going to the kitchen or the garage. Pero nun sinabi ko na 'Papa.., payag naaa?' *medjo lambing na maiiyak na tono*. He smiled and said 'Oo na nga e...' I hugged him and almost cried. The first man in my life is finally letting go of my hand. :)

And while most of my closest friends know of this story, i have yet to tell how I have officially said 'YES'. =P At the start of our relationship, I documented everything, I made a journal with entries for the whole year. Yep! whole year, as in everyday meron talaga. heheheh..Dapat ang ibibigay ko ay ung planner that he gave me on my 24th birthday, pero since good and bad yun nandun, I decided na gagawa nlng ako ng scrapbook filled with happy moments. Para whenever he's sad or when our kids grow up, we'd have something to look back. On our anniversary, I gave him the scrapbook.

It took him the whole day to finish the scrapbook and find the last envelop inside with the message that he wanted to hear since Dec 8.

I said YES, I will. THIS IS IT NA! :D

I LOVE YOU BABY!!!!

Quicksand

The more you struggle, the more you're sink in.

College Sweethearts

Yesterday, while browsing through the net, I stumbled upon a blog that really inspired me. =) I'm not really sure whether it was the old 80's pictures, or because I could relate to the places in the University where they met,or maybe her reason for having a boyfriend, or just the way she told their story that really caught me and made me 'kilig' all over.

But by the end of the story, all I could say was 'Aaaawwwww'. Hehehe...

I think people who found 'the one' for them at an early stage are so lucky. Kasi sa panahon ngayon, for us to know na 'siya na' at our early 20's is so un realistic. There are so many trials and test na pag dadaanan na might make or break the relationship, kahit pa sabihin mong kayo na nga ang tinadhana.

Now a days, it's easy to find someone to be with kung gusto mo lang talaga na may 'makasama'. But then again those who can wait for the right one - the one who'll make things work out. Those who could make the magic last longer, for me, are the luckiest.

The little girl in me is really really really shouting at the top of her lungs. " Dao Ming Zhe, Where are you?" hehehehe.

I hope 'he' could hear me from here.

You can check out her story Here

That's the way I love you

He is sensible and so incredible
And all my single friends are jealous
He says everything I need to hear and it's like
I couldn't ask for anything better
He opens up my door and I get into his car
And he says you look beautiful tonight
And I feel perfectly fine

But I miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain
And it's 2am and I'm cursing your name
You're so in love that you act insane
And that's the way I loved you
Breakin' down and coming undone
It's a roller coaster kinda rush
And I never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you

He respects my space and never makes me wait
And he calls exactly when he says he will
He's close to my mother, talks business with my father
He's charming and endearing and I'm comfortable

He can't see the smile I'm faking
And my heart's not breaking
Cause I'm not feeling anything at all
And you were wild and crazy
Just so frustrating intoxicating complicated
Got away by some mistake and now

And that's the way I loved you oh, oh
Never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you


More often we wished that HE would be perfect. He'd do those gentleman stuff we'd only see in the movies. Those straight and right things. Those honorable things. Be the responsible and dependable trophy guy/gal.

But admit or not, too much of the good stuff can drive you nuts. Too much planning bores me. Can't you just not plan everything, and for once try have something spontanous. He could surprise you. Look at you with those beautiful eyes and smile slyly or wink at you if he catch you staring. Dance crazy and act like kids while playing card games or chess. If only someone would really ask you to just dance in the middle of a parking lot or for no special reason other than he wants to hold you close for 15 minutes.

We wonder if he could only think like us and feel like us, he'd know better and we'd be so happy.
Then again, how can he? If you yourself have no idea what mood you are.

I'm really talking nonsense. I just feel extremely happy and sad. Yep, no middle. Just both ends.
I'd rather feel this crazy than to don't have any feelings at all.

The Hardest Thing and The Right Thing Could be the Same

Sometimes you have to realize that what you think you want isn't really what you want. But what you have is exactly what you need. That where you think you want to be is not the right place and where you are, where you ended up, its all for a reason - and you're exactly where you're supposed to be... at least for now.


and if you managed to follow that thought all the way through - congratulations, because i think i lost even myself in the middle of that....

-- From L

I guess most of us are really stuck in crossroads. We keep on waiting for some sort of sign all of our life. We always wish that if and only we would know what would happen after the "Happily ever after", we'd be better. But then again, where's the rush. The thrill of not knowing what will happen.

Who wouldn't want a perfect life in a perfect world. Problem is, we, as humans are designed to lean towards uncertainy and thrive for challenge that we don't always want what is right in front of us.

About Maturity

Maturity begins to grow when you can sense your concern for others outweighing your concern for yourself.

- John McNaughton

I do believe that when you start to stop nagging about why he's late, or having tantrums of why he can't call you every mintue, or if you stop pouting when he can't drive you all the way to your far far away home on weekends and when you rather he sleeps early than have a night out together. You stepped into that border line. Suddenly, your love has evolved in to a deeper and more mature level.

What Is Love?

"To love is to suffer. To avoid suffering one must not love. But then one suffers from not loving. Therefore to love is to suffer, not to love is to suffer. To suffer is to suffer. To be happy is to love. To be happy then is to suffer. But suffering makes one unhappy. Therefore, to be unhappy one must love, or love to suffer, or suffer from too much happiness. I hope you're getting this down."

~ Woody Allen

How To's

How To Move On (even if you don't want to)
Cry your heart out and then find yourself a world where you could forget. Alienate yourself to everyone who would make you remember until everyone in your life is a stranger. Don't stop until you have become stranger to yourself as well.

How To Survive (just because you have to)
Slowly reacquaint yourself to your old friends, your old life, your old self. In time, you will be back to normal, with one person short, but still, normal.

How To Be Happy (Luffy Style)
Make yourself strong enough so you don't have to lose your nakama (i.e.friends, loved ones, lovers).

reposted from anne's